All Posts Tagged With: "depression"

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The Attacks of the Black Brain

 The attacks of the black brain start with losing something. Usually it is my keys or my wallet, but it could be anything misplaced or forgotten: a passport, a phone, a book or just a place I can’t find.  I feel stupid and frustrated. I will tear up my household looking for the lost items, [...]

25May2010 | Carlton Davis | 0 comments | Continued
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Suicide, The Long Term Solution to a Short Term Problem

I tried suicide once. I have thought about suicide a lot. I came close to suicide a second time. Suicide ideation has followed me for forty five years. When ever I get down the thought of doing myself in comes up. Self-murder has always seemed the optimal solution to unhappy circumstances. “Why not just do [...]

16Apr2010 | Carlton Davis | 0 comments | Continued
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I think I am better than I am

 Grandiosity is a symptom of Bipolar Disorder. When manic I get very grandiose. I think I am better than I am. I liken myself to the great Leonardo Da Vinci. He like me was a writer, artist, and architect; and some say he was bipolar also. Maybe that is why he was so slow in [...]

1Apr2010 | Carlton Davis | 0 comments | Continued
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The US Review of Books Review

“ What the public criticizes in you, cultivate it. It is you.” -Jean Cocteau
Bipolar Bare: My Life’s Journey with Mental Disorder by Carlton Davis, Booksurge
reviewed by Deborah Straw
“Carlotta has been many things in Carlton’s life: muse, nurse, showgirl, cocktail waitress, and whore. I am half of a package that’s normally male, but whose aspirations and desires [...]

28Mar2010 | Carlton Davis | 0 comments | Continued
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The Attack of the Inanimate Objects

 Inanimate objects attack me. Doors, tables, chairs, toilet seats, vacuum cleaners, keys, wallets, tools, cars, and computers – to name just a few of my enemies – have it out for me. They sneak up on me. They lurk in the shadows to obstruct my way. They refuse to cooperate. The small objects lose themselves [...]

8Mar2010 | Carlton Davis | 4 comments | Continued
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Dr. Jekyll and Mrs. Hyde

 
 
                                          The Strange Case of  Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson , who supposedly wrote this novella under the influence of cocaine, strikes me as a perfect metaphor for the states I became under the influence of my magic potion, crack cocaine; except that  my Hyde was not male, but female. Carlotta appeared [...]

2Feb2010 | Carlton Davis | 4 comments | Continued
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The Two-minded Self

The Two-Minded Self                                                 
 This is an old article I wrote, which I have been thinking about lately.
 
“For that person must not suppose that a double minded man
  unstable in all his ways will receive anything from the lord.”
I came upon this passage in the Letter of James in the Bible and found it deeply [...]

6Jan2010 | Carlton Davis | 2 comments | Continued
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MHA’s 100th Anniversary Conference

Five hundred people attended Mental Health America’s 100th Anniversary Conference in Washington, D.C. June 10th through June 13, 2009. It was a great success, according to MHA staff. It was the largest conference ever for MHA, and it was a wonderful conference, but this important event concerning one of the biggest health issues in America [...]

24Jun2009 | Carlton Davis | 8 comments | Continued
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Article defining types of Depression

I came across this article on the internet on depression, which I think gives some good basic information.
Copyright © 2009 Kevin Kielty
 
Many people will experience some form of depression in their lifetime. Depression can range anywhere from mild and short-term
to very severe and debilitating. If you feel yourself suffering from any type of depression, the [...]

16Apr2009 | Carlton Davis | 7 comments | Continued
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The Healing Power of Buddhism

            Dancer of innate compassion within the spacious expanse of nature
            You manifest as one who holds awareness of profound meanings
            Endowed with a vast range of flawless and holy qualities
            Glorious lama may your lotus feet stand firmly.
 
                                                Longevity Prayer – Namkha Drimed Rinpoche
 
Several months ago I attended a purification and healing ceremony conducted by [...]

12Feb2009 | Carlton Davis | 12 comments | Continued