I tried suicide once. I have thought about suicide a lot. I came close to suicide a second time. Suicide ideation has followed me for forty five years. When ever I get down the thought of doing myself in comes up. Self-murder has always seemed the optimal solution to unhappy circumstances. “Why not just do [...]
April 16th, 2010 | carlton | 1 comment | ContinuedOther Recent Articles
Carlton Davis has a new website
I have put on the web a new site for my artwork. Check it out. It was designed Ed Glendininng with my participation. I think it looks really good. Don’t forget to click on the images and they will enlarge. http://www.carltondavisart.com Bookmark on DeliciousDigg this postRecommend on Facebookshare via RedditShare with StumblersTweet about itSubscribe to [...]
April 1st, 2010 | carlton | 0 comments | Continued
I think I am better than I am
Grandiosity is a symptom of Bipolar Disorder. When manic I get very grandiose. I think I am better than I am. I liken myself to the great Leonardo Da Vinci. He like me was a writer, artist, and architect; and some say he was bipolar also. Maybe that is why he was so slow in [...]
April 1st, 2010 | carlton | 2 comments | Continued
Carlton Davis on Carlton Davis
I decided to google Carlton Davis to see who the name brought up. I was the fifth entry. The first entry is a photographer in New York City, who creates images of the most precise and detailed kind. He is a commercial photographer educated at the Rhode Island School of Design whose portfolio includes exquisite [...]
March 29th, 2010 | carlton | 2 comments | Continued
Interview with David Oliver of Bipolar Central
Carl Bipolar Success Story 3-11-10 On February 26th, Carlton Davis was interviewed by David Oliver. The interview is attached. Bookmark on DeliciousDigg this postRecommend on Facebookshare via RedditShare with StumblersTweet about itSubscribe to the comments on this post
March 11th, 2010 | carlton | 0 comments | Continued
The Attack of the Inanimate Objects
Inanimate objects attack me. Doors, tables, chairs, toilet seats, vacuum cleaners, keys, wallets, tools, cars, and computers – to name just a few of my enemies – have it out for me. They sneak up on me. They lurk in the shadows to obstruct my way. They refuse to cooperate. The small objects lose themselves [...]
March 8th, 2010 | carlton | 10 comments | Continued
Author on Blogtalkradio/Chris Teece Show
Carl Davis appeared again on Blogtalkradio. This time on the Chris Teece Show. The link to the show is: http://blogtalkradio/chris-teece/2010/02/03/Authors-spotlight-bipolarbare-author-carltondavis Bookmark on DeliciousDigg this postRecommend on Facebookshare via RedditShare with StumblersTweet about itSubscribe to the comments on this post
February 4th, 2010 | carlton | 0 comments | Continued
Dr. Jekyll and Mrs. Hyde
The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson , who supposedly wrote this novella under the influence of cocaine, strikes me as a perfect metaphor for the states I became under the influence of my magic potion, crack cocaine; except that my Hyde was not male, but female. [...]
February 2nd, 2010 | carlton | 5 comments | Continued
The Two-minded Self
The Two-Minded Self This is an old article I wrote, which I have been thinking about lately. “For that person must not suppose that a double minded man unstable in all his ways will receive anything from the lord.” I came upon this passage in the Letter of James in the Bible [...]
January 6th, 2010 | carlton | 6 comments | Continued
Disappearing on Seroquel
There are many drugs today advertised on TV for mental health issues: Cymbalta for depression, Abilify for Bipolar Disorder, and now Seroquel for Bipolar Depression. Have you seen the advertisement from AstraZeneca? People who are bipolar depressed are shown semi-dissolved into their backgrounds. A woman standing in front of a theatre marquee is half transparent [...]
December 24th, 2009 | carlton | 29 comments | Continued
Bipolar Disorder ain’t a joke
Sometimes I forget how serious an illness Bipolar Disorder is. My life has been going well the past five years. No major attacks of mania. No racing thoughts. No grandiosity. No horrible depressions. No trips to the hospital for “tune-ups.” When I was first in recovery those “tune-up” visits were a regular occurrence when the [...]
December 5th, 2009 | carlton | 0 comments | Continued
A Crop more valuable than Wheat?
Drug abuse prevention has failed miserably. Our attempts to stop the cultivation of marijuana, cocaine, and heroin are like trying to stop the occurrence of ants — impossible and improbable. The anti-drug abuse campaigns around the world have led only to the increased spread of drugs and their increased cultivation. In Afghanistan more land is [...]
October 2nd, 2009 | carlton | 2 comments | Continued
WID is Wonderful for the Wacky
WID (World Institute on Disability) www.wid.org is a wonderful resource for the mentally disabled. If a person is disabled by a psychiatric condition WID is a place to know about for assistance in help maintaining and building assets. Their acting director stated in his presentation on the topic of wealth building to the NAMI National [...]
September 11th, 2009 | carlton | 1 comment | Continued
The Question I get asked a lot
The question I get asked a lot is: Does medication affect your creativity? The answer I give is: It did before I became an advocate for myself. Many people with mental conditions like bipolar disorder and schizophrenia don’t want to take medications because the drugs dampen their creativity. They tell me medication makes them feel [...]
September 4th, 2009 | carlton | 6 comments | Continued
Sour grapes on a bad day
I shall not go gently into that good night or sour grapes on a bad day I shall not go gently into that good night, but like Dylan Thomas, I shall shriek against the dying of the light. It has been five months since I published the book I worked on for five [...]
September 4th, 2009 | carlton | 4 comments | Continued
Carl on Blogtalkradio Again
Carl was on blogtalkradio on Saturday August 29th at 4:00 pm Eastern Time and 1:00 pm Pacific Time talking with Host Simon Barrett, Defense Lawyer Mitch Stone, and Novelist Armando Aldazabar about Drugs, Death, and Destruction. URL where you can hear the program is http://www.blogtalkradio.com/Simon-Barrett/2009/08/29/Drugs-Death-And-Destruction. A news report on the program can also be found [...]
August 30th, 2009 | carlton | 1 comment | Continued
Art on Capitol Hill
I can’t always write on mental health, so here is a little something different. When I went to Washington to Mental Health America’s 100th Anniversary Conference, I was part of a team of MHA members from Los Angeles who visited two California Congressmembers from the LA region: Congressmember Dreier, representing the 26th [...]
August 5th, 2009 | carlton | 12 comments | Continued
Double Tragedies at NAMI Convention in San Francisco
Bill Babbitt stood at the podium and said the police told him he did the right thing when he turned in his brother Manny for the possible crime against a 78-year-old woman who died of a heart attack during an invasion of her home. The police officer said to Manny, a paranoid schizophrenic, [...]
July 27th, 2009 | carlton | 7 comments | Continued
PSYCHO DOUGHNUTS
Psycho Doughnuts was all out of the bipolar doughnut said the nice young red headed nurse who served me. My fantasy, which I had been planning all the way down from San Francisco, had been to buy a dozen of these doughnuts leave the store and begin pitching them again the door of this shop [...]
July 15th, 2009 | carlton | 54 comments | Continued
NO MEDS MANIC
Many manic-depressive people refuse to take medication because it kills their highs and dulls their lows. The high of mania is a wonderful experience, but it tends to be forgotten that the exploration of the dark passages of the mind can be an equally memorable experience. In the high, you are full of energy and [...]
June 16th, 2009 | carlton | 8 comments | Continued
Kirkus Discoveries review
We received this review of bipolar bare from Kirkus Discoveries. A harrowing look at mental illness and drug addiction. Bipolar disorder has earned significant media attention. The glamour from movie stars and musicians who suffer from the mental illness has rubbed off on the disease, giving some the idea that it’s a benign condition falling [...]
April 30th, 2009 | carlton | 28 comments | Continued
My First Mad Man
My first contact with mental illness occurred in college. My roommate John, who was always one intense fellow, began to act very strangely. He stayed up for nights on end smoking cigarettes and writing. The cigarette butts would pile up in ashtrays into little mountains that flowed out around the retainers like the felled, [...]
April 9th, 2009 | carlton | 12 comments | Continued
Ex-patient of Controversial Mental Hospital Speaks Out
Press Release Las Encinas Hospital in Pasadena, California, target of government investigations for numerous failures in patient care, is prominently featured in the memoir of an ex-patient who was treated twice at the facility. Once, walking away, the patient returned, only to have the hospital’s famed program for drug addiction led by Dr. [...]
March 18th, 2009 | carlton | 5 comments | Continued
The Gift of Bipolar Disorder
I have the gift of Bipolar Disorder; so it is believed did Leonardo DaVinci and Van Gogh, my mentors as artists and writers. For more than most of my life time, 20 years to be exact, I didn’t know I had the illness, and just thought I was different from other people. I was crazy, wild, and had periods of severe depression, [...]
March 4th, 2009 | carlton | 38 comments | Continued
The Healing Power of Buddhism
Dancer of innate compassion within the spacious expanse of nature You manifest as one who holds awareness of profound meanings Endowed with a vast range of flawless and holy qualities Glorious lama may your lotus feet stand firmly. Longevity Prayer – Namkha Drimed Rinpoche Several months ago I attended [...]
February 12th, 2009 | carlton | 14 comments | Continued



























